argh...

so my goal was to have this song done by today. not surprisingly, it's not done. it seemed like an attainable goal on Saturday, but I'm still way behind schedule. I could list a thousand reasons why, but I won't - I'll spare you and myself. argh.

but there is a silver lining in all this. upon trying to piece together different parts of the song last night, I realized that something wasn't working. I eventually gave up, turned the computer off, and went to bed frustrated. then, right before I clicked off the lamp on the nightstand, it hit me: the song needs some major revisions. luckily, it seemed to be an easy fix. I wanted to run downstairs, start up the computer, grab the guitar, and throw the headphones on, but I knew I could retain this idea at least for 24 hours. and my wife would have been upset.

so tonight I went to record the new version. I like it even better than the original. the best part is, I think the other parts of the song will fit together nicely and I see melodies developing more naturally. blah, blah, blah... you probably couldn't care less....

some people have asked about the song... mainly about the lyrics. well, parts of the song are still under revision... lyrics may still get cut or added, so I won't share those here yet. but the name of the song (which won't change) is "watching a sinking ship".

I think I'm done for the night... for one reason or another my computer doesn't seem to have the memory available to playback what I've recorded so far without skipping. I wanted to punch it. sometimes violence actually IS the answer... at least in the case of this particular computer.

on different note, I had a good talk tonight with my friends Randy and Spencer about music, movies, and inappropriate themes and messages therein. and how we as Christians tend to steer away from them, even though they often reflect what people in this world are really thinking/saying/doing and therefore helping us relate to what people are going through. and how some can even be viewed as more of an "art form" or expression even though they can contain vile content. it's hard though, because the bible says "guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" (proverbs 4:23). and I believe that very strongly. but I also think some of these expressions can even inspire God-fearing, God-honoring art. as with many philisophical conversations, we didn't really draw any revolutionary conclusions. so I think I'm gonna go revise my song and drop in some f-bombs and other explicit content, if for no other reason than because I'm mad at my computer.