whatever this is, I don't like it.

it's been awhile. life has been busy. work, youth group trips, house cleaning, baby preparing... it seems like the last couple weeks have been somewhat of a whirlwind. so I've been tired a lot.

additionally... I'm experiencing some mild health issues that have made life less than pleasant this last... oh several months. I've told a few people about this, but I've been experiencing some GI (gastrointestinal) issues. when I've told people this, they're like "oh, you have gas". No. I don't have gas (any more than usual anyway). I believe what I have is gastroparesis (or dysmotility). I've done some research and the signs and symptoms involved are pretty much exactly what I'm experiencing: constant nausea, feeling full after only eating a few bites of anything, belching, and feeling full for SEVERAL hours after eating. if my self-diagnosis is correct, my digestive system is unable to process food at a normal rate, which leads to the symptoms I listed. this morning I was full to the max after having a small glass of orange juice.(see my earlier entry about eating a hot dog). at first I thought it was one of those "sympathy pains" that soon-to-be dads experience with their pregnant wife. I don't believe that is the case now. pretty sure it's my own weird thing. in either case, I am going to the doctor about it tomorrow. I've been able to tolerate it recently with the addition of acidophilus (found in yogurt and dietary supplements) in my diet.

there's also this ongoing situation at work that I'm struggling with - I'm trying to find a delicate balance between desiring justice and letting go of my pride. I don't really want to go into details here, but if you really want to know the whole story, feel free to email me. but I could use some prayer in this arena for discernment and wisdom. I wrote a new song tonight that ties into this situation. this will probably be song #2.

in other news, Noah is due in a week and that's exciting. I'm a little nervous with how I'll do in the delivery room. we'll see. the other thing I'm stoked about it putting out an ep this summer. I'm hoping that if I can get at least 1 or 2 more songs written in the next month or two, I can work on recording them and put out a small cd this summer. I am really, really hoping to make it happen by then and maybe playing a few small shows and maybe recruiting a band to play these songs with. I could use some prayer in this arena as well. in fact, this whole journal entry is one big prayer request.

yup. one big prayer request.